Age aint nothin but a number?

Lately, I've been feeling older than I really am. I feel older in my everyday activities, my clothes, my thinking (but not necessarily wiser). Most days I stay in, curl up to a nice movie, puzzle, or do study. Every day I make sure to take a walk to get some fresh air. I don't feel like I am particularly fashionable, in any sense. As I sit in this room, I keep picking up shopping receipts and clothing price tags from "fashionable" designers and brands and can't help but wonder if I'm falling behind the latest fashion trend. But then I check back into reality and realize that I truly don't care about who I buy clothes from, as long as it's comfortable and fits well. OH GREAT, that's the line that everybody who gets nominated for What Not to Wear says, hehe! I feel as though there are bigger, better, and more important things I should be thinking about. I don't like being criticized for being who I am, because I feel so much power in this freedom, and that's priceless.


I never thought I'd be at this point in my life right now. If you were to ask me a year ago where I thought I'd be, it would not be here. Last May, I was preparing for graduation, finishing up my last few classes, and dreading the application process for optometry school. Everything about graduate school screams stressful -- applying, recommendations, essays, secondaries, post-secondaries, interviews, financial aid, and the list could very well continue. Moving back home for five months was probably the best decision I made in a long time. I don't think anybody my age wants to move back home for any period of time, but financially it made sense to do so. I wasn't applying for a job and didn't really have a place to stay for that long. Home is the best remedy. I don't know what came over me when I was at home, but I was just really motivated to push through the application process and make my dream a reality. If I was in California, I know nothing would get done. I'd probably have turned in that application on the last day. All I can say is California is distracting. My family helped me realize how important this was and I started to re-prioritize. Apps opened in October and turned in my app/secondaries at the end of October. Got 10/10 interviews by the beginning of November, went to my top three schools for interviews, got accepted into all three and had CHOICES. This time, I had the opportunity to choose a school. Five months later, here I am, relaxed and SURE of what's to come next. 


I'm just proud of myself for stepping up.